indigo: the color of grief

indigo is the
joy and lament of a
human being
theologian
father

fashioning new ideas about the divine
within the painful
loss of his daughter
within the constraints of his own intelligence
within the constraints of what religion
had been telling him his whole life
some of which was good and
some of which wasn’t
good

it’s a way forward
where forward means the
interaction of
past
choices
past events
and personal agency
in this moment
and this moment
and … yes, this moment

it’s the hope
on the underside of grief
like the pilot fish
with the shark
around the whale
within a section of ocean
an ecosystem of
depth and light
and slow-motion shadows
oceanographic poetry
that breaks the surface from
time to time
that breaks one’s heart from
time to time

indigo is
the color of grief
for its gradation of
sapphires and violets
descending into violence
or ascending into lightness
the beauty of which is found
in both extremes
entanglement
the divine infused within the whole
the hole infused within the divine

read it for cursing
for weeping
for laughing
read it for mourning

read it
for the
world
is on fire